Agree, enlightenment is not a transcendental state. Its unobstructed awareness. However I am not so sure about the "true happiness" part because I don't know how that is being defined. If happiness is the state of awareness where one is able to accept things as it is, then yes it can be equated with being enlightened.
But really the thing on my mind today is not about enlightenment... the top as usual is how I always digress from one thing to another. Purpose.
Yes, "Purpose", the purpose in life is what's really filling up my mind in recent times. Just realized I never found a purpose or thought about it in my entire life. Now after slightly more than half a century of breathing, I found myself asking what is the purpose in life or what my purposes are.
Zero, Zilch, Nada.
Ok I know that sounds rather unmotivating or would give further incentive to propel reading on. But think about it, isn't that true for many people?
There were only goals/ targets. Dropped out of the Polytechnic and went to the army and those few years I havent got a fucking clue what I wanted to do with my life. I fit into none of the systems on this island. But I woke up one day and decided to study again in a foreign land. Had no idea what that entails... the only thought was how am I gonna pass Mathematics in matriculation before getting to university. It became my sole goal even before I got on the flight.
Then in university I had one more course in Calculus-- it was the gate between me and finishing up my majors. Launching straight in and doing Calculus up to 18hrs straight in a day... memorizing every damn thing including the textbook authors names... I scrape through. The rest you can say was literally a breeze ending with A+ or distinction for every credit. Had a 4.0 GPA
I have never been more focus in my entire life before or since...
If there is a time where I can say I have a purpose in life, it was then.
But wait.. during this period I had a kid that came along! That was a big monumental life change. Ok it happened and I wasn't gonna back out and disappear and all.. but again I havent a clue what to do or have to do next... All I knew is good or bad, we'll stick through and live on.
